CHAPTER ONE
The Decision to Search
As a young adopted child, I had been challenged by the question of
which heritage an African-American should embrace. For example,
could an African-American embrace a French heritage because of his
or her affection for the French language and culture learned in high
school?
Does the answer change if his or her ancestors are from the
French-speaking Caribbean island of Guadeloupe? Or should an
African-American seek to embrace African culture? That seems
obvious, but in Kenya alone there are more than seventy ethnic
groups, most with their own languages and cultures. What about all
the other countries in the Africa of today? Few African-Americans
have any idea whether their ancestors hail from the lands known
today as Nigeria, Ghana, or Angola, to name just a few. Many can
live without that ancestral knowledge but, as it turns out, I was
not one of them.
I was twenty-five years old when, after a few months of thought, I
decided to search for my biological parents. It was 1992, during the
last semester of my MBA studies at the University of Maryland. Even
though I had known of my adoption since I was eleven years old and
had a very good relationship with my adoptive family, I had a
growing need to know more about my biological background. Because I
knew nothing of my biological parents and their heritage, I felt
somehow that my own human identity was partially lacking. I had this
sentiment in common with many African-Americans whose family
heritages were erased by centuries of slavery, but in my case even
the previous generation was a mystery.
In February 1992 I spoke with my adoptive mother about my feelings.
“Mom, I am proud of my place in the Lowry family and its heritage. I
love you and am delighted to be your son. You are my real mother. I
also want the additional knowledge of the heritage of my biological
parents.” I explained to her that I wanted to know their ethnic
origins as well as their physical makeup and family medical
histories. Additional information about their interests and
accomplishments would be a bonus.
“I was told only that your biological parents were a mixed-race
couple,” she said quietly.
“I’d kind of concluded I was multiracial from a few comments made by
you and other people over the years,” I slowly said. “But it never
really mattered much back then since I was viewed as a ‘Black’ boy
in a Black family, as opposed to ‘multiracial.’ I remember that you
would never let me tease multiracial people like the other kids did.
You would never let me refer to them as ‘half-breeds,’ for example.”
“Race doesn’t matter,” she said emphatically. “We are all the same
in God’s sight.”
She paused,
looking a bit uncomfortable. I added, “Mom, I want to make sure you
understand that I am not looking for a new mother. You are the only
mother I will ever have, in the truest sense of the word. You raised
me. You cared for me when I was sick.
You went hungry so I could eat. You are my real mother.”
“Thomas, I understand,” she said. “I am okay with you finding your
biological parents. I wouldn’t want to try to stop you, if that is
what you want to do.”
And that was it.
Although I am generally an optimistic person, I went into the search
with low expectations. I didn’t expect to actually find my
biological parents. I assumed they were dead or terrible people I
would not want to befriend. Or, I imagined, if I found them, they
might deny they had anything to do with me. They might not want any
contact with me, perhaps because they would not want their lives
with their current families interrupted.
As stated, I was busy finishing my last semester of my MBA and I was
working full-time as an engineer for a major defense contractor. I
was also having trouble finding a new and better job at this time
because of the recession that gripped the United States in the early
1990s.
Many companies, especially Maryland and Virginia defense
contractors, were laying off engineers and eliminating middle
management positions. Consequently, there was a glut of MBAs and
technical professionals.
Since I was busy studying to graduate and looking to find a new
career, searching for my biological parents took a decidedly low
priority. This was partially because I assumed the search would be a
monumental task and involve months, or even years, of research.
Where would I find the money and time that might be needed to travel
to find these people? Not having a ready answer, I decided to wait
until after completing my MBA to begin investing a lot of resources
in the search.
However, I was able to identify the agency that handled the
adoption, Family Services of Western Pennsylvania, with only a few
inquiring phone calls. I gathered information on state and federal
laws relating to adoption and adoption information, which I thought
would be essential to my search. I contacted different adoption
support groups such as the Adoptees’ Liberty Movement Association
(ALMA), the National Adoption Information Clearinghouse (NAIC), the
Adoption Support Institute, the Black Adoption Consortium, the Black
Adoption Placement Center, and the National Adoption Center.
I figured that an important task before starting the search process
would be to get the adoption agency to answer as many questions as
possible. All it cost me was a postage stamp and the time to write a
letter. Judy Scott, post-adoption clinician, was my helpful contact
at Family Services of Western Pennsylvania, which had been known as
Family and Children’s Service when I was born back in 1966.
On July 1, 1992, Judy mailed me my background history. The
accompanying cover letter said that the information “was obtained
from the agency record” and “was provided by the birth mother” at
the time of my birth. Since the agency had no further contact with
my biological mother, no current information was available. Judy
could not answer many of my questions because of Pennsylvania laws
as of 1992 regarding confidentiality. Judy provided all available
nonidentifying information in the four-page document.
I was taken aback to receive any information at all. It was
incredibly fulfilling to add additional pieces to the puzzle of my
own identity. I felt like I had the majority of what I wanted after
getting the document provided by the agency. My biological mother
was a White American who gave birth to me at the age of nineteen. My
biological father was Kenyan and about twenty-six years old at the
time of my birth. I was indeed multiracial. I learned that both of
my parents attended college.
This was more information than I had ever expected to find. It gave
me a good feeling about the contribution of both of my parents to my
heritage.
As I read the July 1992 report, I noted the statement that my
biological mother provided the source material for all of the
information.
For whatever reason, my biological father was not there to be
interviewed by the adoption agency. Thus, the information about him
and the paternal grandparents in Kenya was second- if not thirdhand.
Discovering in the report that some of my natural mother’s ancestors
were Lithuanians who practiced Judaism was positive. I vaguely
viewed both Lithuanians and Jews as tough and determined, both
groups having survived numerous conflicts over the centuries. As an
athlete and a sports fan, I also knew that Lithuania had a great
national basketball team for such a small nation. Of course, Kenyans
have long been a dominant force in international middle- and
long-distance running. I was happy to know that I had a Kenyan
biological father, a tangible link to my African heritage.
My white maternal grandmother was forty-three years old at the time
of my birth—quite young for a grandmother. She was described as
“brilliant” in the document, which made me think that there might be
some reason for my academic success.
My white maternal grandfather was described as a five-foot ten inch
truck driver of mostly German descent with a high school education.
Because she had given me up while she was a college freshman, I
wondered where my biological mother attended college. I wondered
about the pressure on her at the time to make a decision about what
to do with me. Of course, I was happy that she did not have an
abortion, though the July 1992 report stated that she had considered
that option.
The document stated that she had become a reservation agent with an
airline by 1967, so I assumed that my birth might have caused her to
leave college, at least for a period.
My nineteen-year-old biological mother had given me up for adoption
as soon as I entered the world in December 1966. I was then placed
in foster care. The identity of the foster care family was not
revealed to me until 2006. I have learned that they were an
African-American family in the community of Clairton, just south of
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.